I have been accused of unflinching loyalty. It’s a subject that has been on my mind lately.
Loyalty and trust is not something many people have earned from me because so few have shown it to me when I needed it.
But the idea keeps haunting the edges of my brain. It’s been an underlying theme in recent conversations dealing with family and work. How do you know where to draw the line? How do you know when to quit fighting? How do you know when to walk away?
I’ve been avoiding the idea of walking away from this job because my loyalty is to the customers who we have built a relationship with over the years. But when it’s gotten to the point of having to explain how the job program works to employees who have been here for a couple years or to the actual OWNER of the business who was the one who set the system up in the first place, my frustration level rises. When the fact that my parents are coming to visit for the first time in 2 years and the “boss” in charge of scheduling has known for over a month and seemed appalled that I would like to have someone cover the office for me for part of the time they are here, it goes beyond frustration. Apparently it’s fine for me to be scheduled to work 12 hours a day 7 days a week but having anyone else work for 12 hours is a horrible idea. I’m salary, they are hourly in the office.
I know they don’t appreciate me and they are using me for as much work with as little compensation as they can manage. What they don’t seem to understand is that I know what they’re doing. You learn a lot more when you keep your ears and eyes open and your mouth shut.
I’m about ready to walk away. There’s a plan in place with the details being worked out. We’ll land on our feet but I can’t say the same for them.